Starting over —
I am struggling so hard to find the right words for this post. There are no right words to say. And to be honest, I don’t even know what to say. I don’t want to offend anyone but i feel like pouring my heart out. Then was it supposed to be a letter to myself? It wasn’t just about writing a journal or even straight up writing in a notebook designated for logging your day and feelings. It has always been important for me to write out my thoughts but sometimes, words are not enough and sometimes all the words in the world can’t describe what you’re feeling.
When you’re not too sure how you feel, scribble some words down, and soon enough you’ll have at least some sort of idea where to start soul searching. Self improvement can only be done through self reflection. Through the process of jotting some words down on a page, you’ll find happiness within yourself to give to others. It’s like giving yourself a clean state each time you write.
Just like crying.
You can’t start anew if you don’t empty all the pent up emotions. A river of tears and ink cleanses the body and mind just enough to smile again.
“ In life only one thing is certain, besides death & taxes…No matter how hard we try, No matter how good our intentions, We are going to make mistakes. We are going to hurt people. We are going to get hurt. And if you’re ever going to recover, there’s only one thing to say. Forgive and forget. That’s what they say. It’s a good advice, but it’s not very practical. When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness, nothing is ever settled. Hurts never heal. And the most we can hope for… Is to forget — Meredith Grey ”
I hope you find acceptance. The kind that rings through your bones, the kind that quiets the voice inside of you that tells you that you are not good enough or that you are falling behind. I hope you learn to let go — of the things you had to do in order to heal or grow or to survive. You are doing your best. You are human. Please don’t ever forget that.
I hope you find the kind of moments that take your breath away. I hope you don’t hold back. There is so much to feel in this world. I hope you feel it all.
But most of all, I hope you find youself out there. Figure out your heart.
I hope you live.